Well today is my mom's birthday. I cried myself to sleep last night. At around 11:00 p.m. I called my dad because I needed someone to talk to and I just got the urge to call him. I felt bad because I made him cry. I didn't want to do that. He said he feels sad every day and tried to console me. I felt worse for calling him because now he was sad, too. I try not to bring it up with him because I want him to be happy. I worry about him a lot. I actually haven't brought it up once until last night. I wished my mom a happy birthday and told her that I love her with all my heart. But she knows that already. I hope she hears me.
I watched this 2 hour documentary on KOCE last night called "The Truth About Cancer." It was very interesting and sad. It talked a lot about how cancer research has evolved and what they are working on now. They said they hope to find a cure for cancer by the year 2015. Wouldn't that be nice?
I started thinking a lot about my mom's situation. I knew what those people and their families had felt. I started thinking a lot about my cancer coming back or getting another kind. One of my biggest fears is suffering. None of us are safe.
To change the subject, I applied for an auto loan on Friday and they said they would get back to me by Wednesday. I haven't heard anything yet. My credit isn't the best. Let's hope my mom brings me some luck.
My dog Milo has been sick since Tuesday morning. At about 5 a.m. he woke us up coughing a lot. It was really bad. At first we thought he chewed on something he wasn't supposed to as usual but it continued. It sounded horrible. We decided not to take him to the vet and went to work because it subsided a bit. When we got home he did it a little bit and took him to the vet to ask some questions. We decided to wait. That night it got worse and he was coughing so bad. It continued throughout the whole night. We didn't sleep at all. So this morning Joe took Milo and it turns out he has a fever of 103. His lymph nodes were swollen so he has some type of infection and got meds for the infection and cough. He also got a shot which made him drowsy. If he doesn't get better he'll need an x-ray next week. The fucking bill was $167! :( Poor thing. I hope he gets better.
hi catty. this entry made be super sad. everything is just sad.. from your mom's birthday to your dad's suffering to milo's illness. i really hope things get better for you (and for your dad and for poor milo)
ReplyDeleteand good luck on your auto loan, seriously, the process is a big bitch!